“It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end.” ~ Usula LeGuin
One thing that struck me while I was walking the Camino de Santiago from September to October was that the journey itself was the thing that gave me joy. I did it in my own slow and careful way, usually walking no more than 10-12 miles a day spread out over 44 days of walking. While most pilgrims forged past me at breakneck speed, I took my time and enjoyed the journey. Although I looked forward to reaching my destination each day so I could rest, I also simply enjoyed putting one foot in front of the other, watching the changing scenery, stopping into churches for moments of prayer, sampling Spanish food in cafés, meeting fellow pilgrims and having conversations with them. I enjoyed moments of silence – both mindless and insightful moments. In the beginning, I rarely thought about how far I had to walk to reach Santiago. If I had allowed myself to think of that huge gaping distance between me and my destination, I might have thrown up my hands in despair.
After all those days of walking, climbing mountains, descending steep rocky trails, walking over monotonous landscapes, and being awed by painterly sunrises, dramatic landscapes or charming Spanish towns, I arrived at the Cathedral in Santiago. I attended a mass, as an interloper, for a group of German pilgrims, and then attended the regular pilgrim mass; I watched in awe as the Botafumiero arced enthusiastically toward the vault of the cathedral, and to the heavens. It was an emotional and breathtaking experience.
And, it was over. Just like that.
When I think of the Camino, I don’t think so much of that ending accomplishment, but of the delightful and even the arduous days I spent walking, and walking, and walking.
Today, it seems like a distant dream, something I did in another lifetime, and I find myself longing for that simple act of putting one foot in front of the other.
“You can measure your worth by your dedication to your path, not by your successes or failures.”
― Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear
It’s a strange thing to me — that I actually walked 799 kilometers, almost 500 miles, across northern Spain. It’s almost as if that journey were in another life, or some alternate universe. Sometimes I forget I even did it. And honestly, I’ve felt a bit lost since since I returned. I’d like to capture some of the feeling I had while I was there, and carry it with me in my everyday life.
Over the years, I’ve had numerous goals, only some of which I’ve completed: To make stunning quilts. To make jewelry. To draw blueprints for my dream house. To have an interior design business. To complete my Master’s and get a job abroad in international aid. To get my completed novel published. To work in the Middle East. To finish writing my memoir. To finish my road trip novel. To write more poetry. To learn to draw, to paint, and to make art journals. To write a book of related short stories. To walk the Camino!
There are so many things I want to accomplish. But they often seem overwhelming to me because I doubt I’m up to the task. For instance, I’ve sent my novel to numerous agents and have been rejected every time, so I’ve convinced myself I’m not a good enough writer, that I have no talent, and though I could self-publish, no one would read my book. I’m simply not creative enough. I’ve set myself up for failure from the get-go, so I’m afraid indulge my creative impulses. I get stuck in my belief that I’ll always be stuck.
After discovering the joy I found in the simple journey of following my curiosity and doing the Camino, of putting one foot in front of the other with little thought of the final destination, I’ve decided I should apply this lesson to my life. I’ve decided that in 2019, I’m going to pick a few projects to focus on, and do them simply because I enjoy them.
I’ve always wondered if I could learn to draw, as I’ve never had any artistic ability whatsoever. People have told me I can learn. Although I am skeptical, I’ve decided to explore my curiosity. I’ve signed up to take a beginning drawing class this winter. I’m going in with no preconceptions about my ability to learn. I’m going to enjoy the process of learning. I’m also interested in Art Journaling, and though I’ve signed up for a class, I’m #5 on the waitlist, so it’s possible I won’t get in.
I have had fun toying around with poetry this year on my blog and though I know I have a lot to learn, and my poems are a far cry from what I wish they could be, I’m going to continue to play around with them. I’ve signed up for a “Found Poetry” class this winter. Later in the year, I’d love to take a class on “Poetic Forms.” Most of all, I want to let my imagination run wild, and to enjoy wordplay.
Finally, I hope to work on a number of unfinished projects. I want to read books that I already have on my bookshelves (50 is my goal); many of these books I’ve had for 10 years or more! I want to keep plugging away at the Kon Mari decluttering we started a couple of years ago. And I want to finish the first draft of my road trip novel, and to have fun with it, without any regard to whether it’s good enough, or whether I’m creative or imaginative enough, or whether it will ever be published. I want to look at each day of writing as an adventure, and to enjoy the fun of failure!
I also plan to continue to make intentions for my travels, to have fun making my travels more artful, and experimenting with different ways to create art from those travels.
The Camino also awakened a spiritual desire in me, and I want to explore a couple of churches in my area in the coming year. My wish is to find community, and a place that does some social justice work, without getting caught up too much in religious dogma.
My travels this year I hope will include:
- A combined trip across the pond:
- To Morocco (solo with G Adventures) and to Italy (with Mike to the middle of the boot, including Florence, Siena, Pisa, Cinque Terre, and Tuscany.)
In the U.S., I hope to take several road trips:
- A road trip to Louisville and Lexington, Kentucky (Bourbon Trail and horse country, respectively), and Cincinnati, Ohio.
- A road trip through the Dakotas and Nebraska, stopping to visit my sister in her new home in Illinois and both of my sons in Denver, Colorado.
- A trip to Charleston, South Carolina with my daughter.
Most of all, I want to enjoy the journey, to follow my curiosity, to look at all my attempts as adventures.
“You can measure your worth by your dedication to your path, not by your successes or failures.”
― Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear
I don’t want to think about the end goals because end goals seem to suggest that the journey itself is drudgery. I hope to enjoy the journey for its own sake, as I did the Camino.
“Curiosity is the one thing invincible in nature.” ~ Freya Stark
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“ON JOURNEY” INVITATION: I invite you to write a post on your own blog about the journey itself for a recently visited specific destination. Or you can write about the journey you hope to take in the year ahead. If you don’t have a blog, I invite you to write in the comments.
Include the link in the comments below by Tuesday, January 15 at 1:00 p.m. EST. When I write my post in response to this challenge on Wednesday, January 16, I’ll include your links in that post.
This will be an ongoing invitation, once on the third Wednesday of each month. Feel free to jump in at any time. 🙂
I hope you’ll join in our community. I look forward to reading your posts!
Such a wonderfully thoughtful post, with inspiration for my own thinking about my 2019. I’m spending a day with a friend tomorrow to strategise our individual intentions for the year, and this post might shake me off the tracks I’ve been following for years, digging a deeper and deeper rut.
Your learnings from the Camino are profound, and as for your projects for the year … wow!! Is it long enough? I love the way you walked it, at your own pace, being your own woman. The light in the photos is so different from your desert ones, and the roads are so enticing, in a quiet sort of way.
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Meg 🙂 🙂 So cross with myself because I was reading your email on my phone, one handed because I was clutching a coffee in the other, and whoops, I have deleted you when I got only halfway down. 😦 What a clutz I am! Will catch up soon.
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I always love when a new year arrives, Meg. It somehow brings on so many possibilities! How nice to set intentions for the year with a friend. Brainstorming ideas is always good, and helps you think of areas you might not have considered. I’m glad if you found some inspiration here; I get mine from many sources, as I’m sure you do too!
I’ll be writing about my daily walks on the Camino for some time to come, but I hope to write one on the overall journey in January that will focus on the Camino as life. The Camino roads were very enticing, except for the ones that weren’t! I really loved the way I did it, slowly, savoring each moment, and not rushing through. I’m lucky I was able to do it that way, as I had the time to do so. Not everyone does, as they have work and other obligations to return to. Thanks for reading, Meg, and happy holidays to you and your family. 🙂
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You and the mention of art journaling. I’m hooked!!! Dunno whether to curse you or thank you. However I do know that I want to wish you and your family wonderful celebrations whatever form they take. What a year for you to look back on.
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It seems like so much fun, and I’m hopeful I can get some inspiration to actually pursue that this year! I wish you and your family a wonderful holiday, Meg, and a year ahead of dreams-come-true! 🙂
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Cathy, I love you! You are an inspiration and a joy, as well as being one of the busiest and most motivated people I have ever met. I have no clear idea of what Artful journaling might be, but it sounds fun, and I’m amazed at the number of different classes you appear to have access to. I can only applaud, Cathy, and say ‘keep on doing what you’re doing!’. The very best of health and happiness to you and Mike in the year ahead, and Merry Christmas! 🙂 🙂
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Thanks so much, Jo, for your kind words! I’m so lucky, being here in the Washington, D.C. metropolitan area, that so many educational opportunities abound. There is the Writer’s Center in Bethesda, Maryland, the Torpedo Factory/Art League in Old Town Alexandria, and the Reston Community Center, closest to my house. I’m so thankful I don’t have to work and have the opportunity to keep exploring, thanks to the support and encouragement of Mike.
I wish the best for you and Mick and your family in the coming year! Merry Christmas to you too, Jo! 🙂
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Hi Cathy, you certainly like to set yourself long and comprehensive ‘to do’ lists. You will be very busy in 2019. I think it is good to study the creative arts particularly after a lifetime of doing other things. It’s why I got a degree in visual art and a masters in creative writing. Studying creative subjects builds confidence in your own abilities.
Art journalling is something I do too. There are plenty of online courses so if you don’t get into one you should be able to get into another one easily. I have never done a course in it but have looked at lots of books that describe the processes. It’s one of those things that doesn’t really have any hard and fast rules. It’s just about self expression. A bit like your Camino walk except in this case you just make one mark after another.
Good luck with all youur travels. They sound exciting.
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I have always been a list-maker, Suzanne. I just can’t seem to help myself! I’ve always had an interest in writing, and was an English major, but have only explored creative endeavors in later life and outside of rigorous degree programs. For a long time I was a quilter, and then I one day decided I would no longer quilt and gave away all the fabrics I collected. Now I’m regretting that, as I’ve always loved textiles and the putting together of fabrics into artistic creations! Oh well, that move was shortsighted.
About the art journaling, I follow a number of Instagram journal artists, and it has piqued my interest. The drawing is something I’ve always admired from afar, feeling it was out of my league. So we’ll see about that. It is always fun to explore, isn’t it? I like to see what is possible, and what seems interesting, and then dip in and see if I like it. 🙂
As for the travels, it will be hard to top last year’s, but I am always excited about exploring new areas both abroad and stateside.
Thanks for your good wishes, and happy holidays to you, Suzanne!
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Good luck with youurr travels and with your creative endeavours. Keep ticking things off your list and/or making new ones if that’s your thing. 😊 Sounds like you will never be bored.
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It’s true that I rarely get bored, Suzanne. Maybe that’s why I do these things. I’ve heard it said that mankind gets in the most trouble when bored! 🙂
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Again you amaze me with your organisation and passion Cathy. I love the way you tackled The Camino one step at a time and cherished the journey before you. 2019 is going to be an exciting year for you and I applaud your attitude “to enjoy the fun of failure” after all the only people who never fail are those that never try anything new. You inspire me. Enjoy this season and best wishes for the coming year.
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Thanks so much, Pauline. The Camino is so much like life. I couldn’t help thinking that each day as I walked. Life is, after all, just putting one foot in front of the other. I agree with your comment that the only people who never fail are those who never try anything new. By the way, your sketching expeditions are one of the inspirations for my new exploration into drawing this year. We’ll see how it goes. Happy holidays to you!! 🙂
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I echo your sentiments, Pauline!!
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I loved this post! So thoughtful, and I am in awe of your to-do list for 2019!
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Thanks, Sue. I hope I’m not overly ambitious, but it’s likely I am! 🙂
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Blimey…..I have zilch ambition in comparison!
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I seriously doubt that, Sue! 🙂
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Hehee
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Great post & brilliant images!
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Thanks so much, Liam! 🙂
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Having just received yet another rejection email from a publisher to whom I submitted some picture book manuscripts, I know how you feel re your writing capabilities. But I am determined to continue making submissions. I am sure you should persist too, as you just need the right person to see your work. In the meantime, it’s good to know you will be taking the time for yourself to work on things you love to do. I’m looking forward to reading about the trips you have planned.
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Good for you, Carol, and I wish you good luck. At least you’re still sending them out. I haven’t sent mine out in well over a year, maybe two! I have fun just doing these projects, so maybe I don’t really care. But then, of course I must! 🙂
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I wish you all the best as you follow your dreams in 2019!
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Thanks so much, Anabel. 🙂
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A wonderful post and one that should be read by all who think goals and achievements are the only measure of a worthwhile life. Life is about the journey and I’m so happy for you. 2019 plans sound exciting, enjoy.
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Thank you so much for your kind words, Jim. And thank you too for your encouragement! Happy holidays and may you have a magnificent 2019! 🙂
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A lovely post and delightful quotes and photos to go with it. Life is one step at a time and occasionally we trip over. I am glad your Camino journey went smoothly and that it has left you with a sense of peace. Good luck with all your dreams in 2019 Cathy, I am sure you will achieve them.
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Thanks so much, Jude. Yes, the Camino taught me a lot, and did leave me with a sense of peace. And thanks so much for the good wishes for 2019. I wish the same for you, Jude. And Merry Christmas as well! 🙂
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I know you’ll keep on travelling and enjoy your travels and life, but I want to believe that you will continue writing because you have a very distinctive voice that people will listen to. Please keep on sending your work out, ignore the rejections, they are par for the course and lots of famous writers have had dozens of rejections before someone cleverer than all the rest saw their worth. Don’t go down the self-publishing route (unless it’s a purely factual book) until you have really exhausted all the traditional byways, you will regret it if you do, and although there are lots of really good self-published books, there is no substitution for an editor giving it the thumbs-up and backing you.
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Thank you, Mari. You’re so nice to say I have a distinctive voice. I often don’t feel I have any particular voice at all. I’ll have to get busy sending out my novel again, but I would like to revise it yet another time first! It’s not on my list for this year; hopefully next. Yes, I agree there would be nothing better than having a publisher to back me, but if I can’t get it published eventually, I may resort to self-publishing. Thank you so much for the words of encouragement. Happy holidays!! 🙂
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